I really miss my sister. In case you didn't know, my mom is not... the best person. I don't think she is a bad person, she has had a very bad life, but I know she is not amazing to me and my siblings even though she loves us very much. When I was too young to really remember it, my brother completely cut my family out of his life and became a bartender I'm pretty sure. Then my mother got worse. A few years later, my sister turned 18, and she cut my mother out too... And my mother got better. Now that it was just me she had to worry about, my mother got less overwelmed. She acted like a weight had gotten lifted off of her shoulders.
But today... I really miss my sister. I remember all of her friends... They were all so Beautiful. They would come over every day back when Elle lived here, and when she disappeared, so did they...
There was Lee. Lee was kind of the leader of the group, I think. She always looked so angry... Then there was this weird quiet girl, Mary, who wouldn't stop flirting with her. She'd whisper dirty jokes in her ears sometimes. She made me mad. Sometimes her roommate Schwaggy would come over too before he was stabbed to death by Elle, and then there was Elanor...
What's weird about Elanor is I don't remember her face at all. But she was so kind to me. Any time that I would tag along on their adventures, she was the one who made sure people included me in the conversation. She would sing songs about love and being transgender and being a lesbian and, of course, I didn't know what any of the words meant when I was that age, but I found one of her notebooks in my sister's junk drawer and I just cannot stop flipping through it. She wrote love poems about pretty much all of her friends. She did a lot of drugs. She taught herself the Onclax's dark arts. One of the songs is about losing your virginity to a mermaid. If there is anyone in the world who ends up commenting on my blog... I hope it is you Elanor. I hope you come to visit me sometime. I hope that you can sing me another song or tell me why my sister hasn't written. I love you Elanor
I love you
I love you